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 GORGEPrivate First Class I  Posts: 11 |
# Thread - 2023-09-16 at 1:10 PM
Hello old friends, I have waited a while before coming back here to say what I needed to say because I had to work on myself. I want to say sorry to all the people I considered friends for cheating in-game. I want to offer some reasons, not excuses because I know we're way beyond them. In my time playing on the crouch server and talking in TS, I was being prescribed a lot of medications which affect how I acted. The worst offender that comes to mind is Zopiclone. Which I needed to take in order to sleep. This medication would strip me of any sort of inner monologue and I'd say anything that came to mind.. looking back it must have been pretty weird and creepy of me to do this. These same pills caused me to act irrationally in terms of me thinking that finding exploits and reporting them would help me become closer with the clan I want to say to Bitter, I'm truly sorry for doing that. I have no idea what must have been going through your mind. In my mind, if I wanted to join the clan my level had to be higher. Like a dumb idiot I installed some cheats to reach that level. At the time thinking it was totally normal to do that. I miss playing here every day, now that I'm off all the medication I feel like my normal self again and I regret that this weren't the person you guys interacted with. Things would have definitely turned out different. (I did receive a message on steam asking if I was responsible for an attack on the server, I want to let you know that this wasn't me. I wouldn't blame anyone for thinking it was me but I don't think I could have brought myself to go that far even if I wanted to. I just want to say sorry again for any harm caused by my actions and know that I regret them to this day. I hope everyone is well, and that the server stays alive for years to come. |
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 TheEarlyBirdLt. Colonel  Location: The Great Nest Posts: 212 |
# Answer: 1 - 2023-09-16 at 1:45 PM
This situation is a bit before my time, but I can confirm Zopiclone to be a bloody awful sleeping remedy. There have been cases of people driving their car while under the influence of Zopiclone and other medications of the same class not remembering a single thing in the morning. Myself I was prescribed a similar sounding and effecting medication called Zolpidem which made me feel out of my faculties. I would try to go outside completely unclothed and not remember it, my fella had to tell me it was very embarrassing I stopped the medication straight away lol I don't condone or pretend to know what led up to your ban/punishment, but that seems like a sad situation. I hope you have focused on getting better as I suspect insomnia isn't the only thing you (were)/are going through. ------------------ 
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 Aussiekille8Captain  Posts: 173 |
# Answer: 2 - 2023-09-17 at 6:17 AM
i rember you. you play under the name George. u was on ts and a fun guy to chat to and that. then you try to be come a meber and was banned for wall hacking. now it this is right after you got banned the sever was attack and you ever put a post up saying you did not hack at all now you saying you hack. then on steam you added me and you told me you did not hack in game or sever but you try to get me to use anydesk to hook up to your pc. but i did not do it at all because you could access my pc as well. when i said no you banned from from steam friends. only a couple of admin know about that adding me on steam stuff Last edit by Aussiekille8 at 2023-09-17 at 6:33 AM (2x Edited) |
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| GORGE Thread author Private First Class I Posts: 11 |
# Answer: 3 - 2023-09-17 at 12:41 PM
2023-09-17 at 12:17 PM - Aussiekille8: i rember you. you play under the name George. u was on ts and a fun guy to chat to and that. then you try to be come a meber and was banned for wall hacking. now it this is right after you got banned the sever was attack and you ever put a post up saying you did not hack at all now you saying you hack. then on steam you added me and you told me you did not hack in game or sever but you try to get me to use anydesk to hook up to your pc. but i did not do it at all because you could access my pc as well. when i said no you banned from from steam friends. only a couple of admin know about that adding me on steam stuff Hi AussieKille8, I remember you too. Great bloke. I believe the server was being attacked up to a few weeks before my ban. Though at the time the cause was put down to the hosts problem weather or something. I did try to deny the fact that I did cheat back then, it wasn't until quite recently that I'd be completely prescription free. So in my sleeping pilled zombie mind it was the best damage control, though now I know how stupid it was. I was delighted that you added me on steam, you were a cool person to talk to. But straight away I notice something is off, you wished for a confession of some sort. Yes, I denied it again to you, as I knew you'd report it back. I was sleeping pill zombie but still knew that. With regards to attacking on the server though. Yes I re-stated that I had not done such an attack. I don't remember this anydesk conversation but from what I have googled, it's a remote access software which allows screen sharing. If you could show me any sort of screenshot what I said here that would be great. It looks like I was trying to show you something. I certainly wouldn't have done anything malicious to your computer. I may have been in a sleep zombie state but I know the prison time for that. Plus I considered you a friend. At that point, it clicked in my mind that you were just adding me to try and gain information to bring back. There was no interest in talking. So yes, I did remove you from my friends list because I would rather do that on the official forums and not a third party service. I can understand where you're coming from Aussie, from your perspective I was already attacking the server so I could access your computer and do malicious things. Sorry for putting you through that Aussie. |
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| Aussiekille8 Captain Posts: 173 |
# Answer: 4 - 2023-09-18 at 8:09 AM
well i dont have the screenshot as i nolong have the steam acc you had me on. im very glad you have not told us you have was hacking in game. and i never had lagg or anything when we was playing togeter. plus you add me on steam before you was banned. i hope you have a very very good day or night. hopefully we meet again in a game in the future now i have rocket dutes to do haha |
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 VoodooCommander  Posts: 651 |
# Answer: 5 - 2023-09-21 at 12:37 PM
Hi Gorge, We appreciate you being forthcoming about the issues that caused you problems. I hope that your health is better and that you're off those chemicals. We will discuss the next action to take and advise you in this post. Again, thank you for being honest and forthcoming. That counts! You'll see me ingame as Bubba Yagga! |
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| GORGE Thread author Private First Class I Posts: 11 |
# Answer: 6 - 2023-09-21 at 12:58 PM
2023-09-21 at 6:37 PM - Voodoo: Hi Gorge, We appreciate you being forthcoming about the issues that caused you problems. I hope that your health is better and that you're off those chemicals. We will discuss the next action to take and advise you in this post. Again, thank you for being honest and forthcoming. That counts! You'll see me ingame as Bubba Yagga! Hi Voodoo good to communicate again. Thank you for the kind words for my health, I've ditched those things completely and found that natural things like going to the gym does better than any anti-depressant or sleeping pill did for me. I'm not sure I deserve a second chance after what I did, but it would not be squandered. Feels great to communicate with this community again, I think that was a greater punishment to me than being banned if I'm honest. Thanks 
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| Voodoo Commander Posts: 651 |
# Answer: 7 - 2023-09-24 at 7:30 AM
At this time your status will remain unchanged. |
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 BitterSpockMaster of Time and Space  Location: Planet Vulcan Posts: 2904 |
# Answer: 8 - 2023-09-26 at 11:28 PM
what voodoo said |
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| GORGE Thread author Private First Class I Posts: 11 |
# Answer: 9 - 2023-09-27 at 12:59 PM
2023-09-27 at 5:28 AM - BitterSpock: what voodoo said No problems at all. It is probably the safest course of action and I understand that. This is why I didn't post it in the ban appeal section. I just wished to try and connect with the clan in some way again on forums to offer my apology. I don't think I should be unbanned, probably ever for what I did. If you see it the same way, thats fine. It's a point in my life in which I regret to this day. |
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